E t\u00e2rziu, st\u0103m \u00een pat \u0219i m\u0103 uit la tine, copil curajos; e\u0219ti at\u00e2t de mic\u0103 \u0219i totu\u0219i m\u0103 impresionezi cu puterea \u0219i energia ta, chiar \u0219i a\u0219a bolnavioar\u0103 cum e\u0219ti. De multe zile tusea, febra \u0219i durerile nu te las\u0103 s\u0103 te bucuri de copil\u0103rie \u0219i nici nu vor s\u0103 se lase duse cu niciun chip. \u00cen ciuda st\u0103rilor rele tu r\u00e2zi, te joci, \u00eemi faci inima s\u0103 creasc\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd te bucuri de orice m\u0103run\u021bi\u0219, care \u021bie ti se pare at\u00e2t de amuzant. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sunt c\u00e2teva zile deja de c\u00e2nd o r\u0103ceala mai grozav\u0103 ne-a izolat \u00een cas\u0103, l\u0103s\u00e2ndu-ne s\u0103 lupt\u0103m cu frisoane \u0219i dureri \u00een piept de la at\u00e2ta tu\u0219it. Eu m-am pl\u00e2ns \u00eentr-una, mai r\u0103u dec\u00e2t tine, iar tu nu ai dec\u00e2t trei ani. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai fost \u00eentotdeauna o lec\u021bie pentru mine; \u00een cele mai cumplite momente de boal\u0103, tu e\u0219ti mereu vesel\u0103 \u0219i cu chef de joac\u0103. Eu sunt un copil mare, care nu vrea altceva dec\u00e2t s\u0103 zac\u0103, s\u0103 doarm\u0103 \u0219i iar s\u0103 zac\u0103. Mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 nu mai analizez at\u00e2t de mult durerea de pe ici, de pe colo \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 bucur mai mult de orice moment, a\u0219a ca tine, fie el ca \u0103sta, \u00een care nu fac altceva dec\u00e2t s\u0103 trag de nas. Mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 mai am inocen\u021ba ta, dorin\u021ba ta nealterat\u0103 de via\u021ba, de jucat, de c\u00e2ntat, de tr\u0103it secund\u0103 cu secund\u0103 \u00eentr-un basm nesf\u00e2r\u0219it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
De fiecare dat\u0103 noi dou\u0103 ne \u00eemboln\u0103vim la pachet, e un soi de chestie a noastr\u0103 ca fiecare r\u0103ceala a mea sau a ta s\u0103 fie…”a noastr\u0103”. Uneori, unii prieteni de-ai mei care nu au copii, \u00eemi pl\u00e2ng de mil\u0103 c\u00e2nd m\u0103 v\u0103d „virusat\u0103” \u0219i cu nas de Rudolf, zic\u00e2nd c\u0103 li se pare cople\u0219itor numai s\u0103 se g\u00e2ndeasc\u0103 la mine cum nu m\u0103 pot duce acas\u0103 dup\u0103 o zi lung\u0103 \u0219i grea la birou, s\u0103 m\u0103 bag direct sub plapum\u0103, s\u0103 beau un ceai cald \u0219i s\u0103 dorm ne\u00eentoars\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 a doua zi, \u00eentruc\u00e2t trebuie s\u0103 am grij\u0103 de tine, s\u0103 petrecem timp \u00eempreun\u0103, s\u0103 \u00eemi adun toat\u0103 energia pe care (nu) o mai am \u0219i s\u0103 fiu acolo, prezent\u0103 pentru tine. De fapt, ceea ce nu \u0219tiu ei este c\u0103 energia mea e\u0219ti tu. For\u021ba mea vine fix de la tine. Tu e\u0219ti ap\u0103, c\u0103ldur\u0103, lumin\u0103, hran\u0103 sufletului meu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
La fel ca \u00een zilele acelea, nu pu\u021bine, c\u00e2nd vin s\u0103 te iau de la gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103 epuizat\u0103 fizic \u0219i psihic de la serviciu, iar cel mai minunat lucru pe care \u00eel pot trai este momentul c\u00e2nd poarta se deschide \u0219i tu m\u0103 vezi de departe; ochii aceia gri-verzui, mari \u0219i ner\u0103bd\u0103tori m\u0103 \u021bintesc cu agilitatea unui \u0219oim \u0219i \u00eemi alergi \u00een bra\u021be strig\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 pe numele meu preferat: „Mami! Mami”. Atunci m\u0103 a\u0219ez \u00een genunchi, ca un nebun \u00eensetat ce r\u0103t\u0103ce\u0219te de luni \u00eentregi prin de\u0219ert \u0219i afl\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi un r\u00e2u pe undeva; asemenea lui, eu beau \u00eensetat\u0103 din tine, izvorul meu de inocen\u021b\u0103, fericire, lumin\u0103, culoare, bun\u0103tate, energie. E\u0219ti incredibil\u0103! \u0218i este nemaipomenit cum este de ajuns s\u0103 m\u0103 cuprinzi cu bra\u021bele de g\u00e2t \u0219i mi-ai trimis undeva \u00een dep\u0103rtare toate grijile \u0219i problemele care \u00een definitiv, nu sunt ale mele, dar m\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nez s\u0103 le fac ale mele \u0219i chiar ale noastre, uneori. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
De la tine, soarele meu cu ochii gri, \u00eemi iau curajul \u0103sta nebun s\u0103 \u00eenfrunt orice ar putea s\u0103 vin\u0103 \u00een calea noastr\u0103. O secund\u0103 nu mi-ar fi team\u0103 s\u0103 te \u00eembrac \u00een miez de noapte \u0219i s\u0103 te port pe bra\u021be pe holurile aglomerate ale spitalelor, dac\u0103 a\u0219 sim\u021bi c\u0103 este momentul. Sunt preg\u0103tit\u0103 s\u0103 fac orice este necesar pe p\u0103m\u00e2ntul acesta ca s\u0103-\u021bi fie bine. Nu m\u0103 mai tem de triajul interminabil, de \u00eenc\u0103peri insalubre numite saloane, de medici obosi\u021bi \u0219i dep\u0103\u0219i\u021bi de situa\u021bie, de paturi vechi \u0219i incomode, de nop\u021bi albe \u0219i \u00eenl\u0103crimate. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru tine a\u0219 sta treaz\u0103 oric\u00e2te ore este nevoie, s\u0103 te veghez c\u00e2nd dormi \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 asigur c\u0103 nu \u00ee\u021bi este prea cald, sau prea frig, c\u0103 respira\u021bia ta este normal\u0103, c\u0103 maimu\u021bica ta preferat\u0103 este l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine \u00een cazul \u00een care te vei trezi \u0219i vei \u00eentreba de ea, c\u0103 sticlu\u021ba de apa „cu feti\u021b\u0103”<\/em> este mereu plin\u0103 \u0219i la \u00eendem\u00e2na ta, dac\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi va fi sete. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Oare tu po\u021bi s\u0103 vezi ce v\u0103d \u0219i eu c\u00e2nd m\u0103 uit la tine? E\u0219ti un miracol divin. Repari tot ce-i stricat \u00een mine \u0219i m\u0103 re\u00eentrege\u0219ti, buc\u0103\u021bic\u0103 cu buc\u0103\u021bic\u0103. \u0218tiu, \u0219tiu c\u0103 eu \u0219i tat\u0103l t\u0103u avem obi\u0219nuin\u021ba s\u0103 spunem c\u0103 noi \u021bi-am dat tot ce am avut mai bun \u0219i mai frumos. \u00cen realitate, este invers. Tu oricum ne vezi cei mai frumo\u0219i oameni din lume, de\u0219i acum serios vorbind, nu prea suntem rup\u021bi din soare; dar tu, tu ne faci s\u0103 fim mai buni \u00een fiecare zi, ca s\u0103 sim\u021bim cumva c\u0103 merit\u0103m onoarea de a-\u021bi fi p\u0103rin\u021bi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Copilul meu \u00eenc\u0103 prea mic, dar marea descoperire a vie\u021bii mele, nu \u00eemi vor ajunge niciodat\u0103 cuvintele s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi dezv\u0103lui \u00een c\u00e2te feluri distincte, dar toate grozave m\u0103 faci s\u0103 m\u0103 simt pentru c\u0103 sunt mama ta. C\u0103 am marea \u0219ans\u0103 de a te vedea f\u0103c\u00e2nd at\u00e2tea lucruri extraordinare din primul r\u00e2nd \u00een fa\u021ba scenei, c\u0103 m\u0103 bucur la nebunie de spectacol \u0219i totu\u0219i, eu tr\u0103iesc cu nemiloasa senza\u021bie c\u0103 parc\u0103 nu \u00ee\u021bi dau nimic la schimb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Tu \u00eemi faci inima s\u0103 bat\u0103 cu putere pentru tine, ochii mi se umezesc instantaneu c\u00e2nd faci o descoperire singur\u0103 \u0219i radiezi de \u00eenc\u00e2ntare, c\u00e2nd m\u0103 m\u00e2ng\u00e2i pe cap seara \u00eenainte de culcare, c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u021bi roste\u0219ti cu claritate numele t\u0103u lung, sau c\u00e2nd mi-l roste\u0219ti pe-al meu „Mami tu e\u0219ti Danela \u0219i pumoas\u0103”.<\/em> Poftim! E\u0219ti minunat\u0103!<\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u0103 fiu mama ta este calitatea mea cea mai bun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i am \u0219tiut-o cu mult \u00eenainte s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi s\u0103rut ochi\u0219orii pentru pentru prima dat\u0103, \u00een sala de na\u0219teri. M-am preg\u0103tit dintotdeauna s\u0103 te primesc \u00een via\u021ba mea \u0219i am a\u0219teptat cu senin\u0103tate s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenve\u021bi cum s\u0103 transform \u00een interiorul meu sl\u0103biciunea \u00een for\u021b\u0103, nesiguran\u021ba \u00een curaj, oboseala \u00een rezisten\u021ba, durerea \u00een fericire \u0219i nevoia \u00een fapte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u0103 fiu mama ta este ca o c\u0103l\u0103torie \u00een jurul lumii. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Orice pas facem \u00eempreun\u0103 este un necunoscut, care m\u0103 fascineaz\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eensp\u0103im\u00e2nt\u0103 \u00een egal\u0103 m\u0103sur\u0103. Fiecare zi cu tine este diferit\u0103, tu ai at\u00e2tea valen\u021be, te transformi de la zi la zi \u00een at\u00e2tea moduri pe care abia reu\u0219esc s\u0103 le cuprind uneori. Dar \u00ee\u021bi promit c\u0103 m\u0103 str\u0103duiesc; chiar m\u0103 str\u0103duiesc s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi \u00een\u021beleg limbajul, st\u0103rile de spirit, dorin\u021bele tale, emo\u021biile \u0219i nevoile tale. Nu este \u00eentotdeauna u\u0219or s\u0103 \u0219tii, dar \u00eemi place la nebunie c\u0103 suntem actorii principali \u00een acela\u0219i incredibil film, pe care nu l-am mai jucat niciodat\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 acum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n E t\u00e2rziu. \u00cenainte s\u0103 adormi cu \u00eengera\u0219ii, la fel ca \u00eentotdeauna, te-am s\u0103rutat pe frunte, te-am m\u00e2ng\u00e2iat, te-am adulmecat \u0219i te-am rugat s\u0103 m\u0103 aju\u021bi \u0219i m\u00e2ine s\u0103 fiu cea mai bun\u0103 pentru tine. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" E t\u00e2rziu, st\u0103m \u00een pat \u0219i m\u0103 uit la tine, copil curajos; e\u0219ti at\u00e2t de mic\u0103 \u0219i totu\u0219i m\u0103 impresionezi cu puterea \u0219i energia ta, chiar \u0219i a\u0219a bolnavioar\u0103 cum…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2341,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[47,43,37],"powerkit_post_featured":[4,6],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2340"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2340"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2340\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2344,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2340\/revisions\/2344"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2341"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2340"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2340"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2340"},{"taxonomy":"powerkit_post_featured","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordmaniangirl.ro\/?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fpowerkit_post_featured&post=2340"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}