Aveam 31 de ani \u0219i jum\u0103tate, dar \u021bin \u00eentotdeauna s\u0103 men\u021bionez \u0219i jum\u0103tate<\/em> fiindc\u0103 tocmai aceast\u0103 jum\u0103tate de an din a doua parte a anului 2021 a schimbat complet regulile jocului \u00een via\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen cea mai mare parte a vie\u021bii mele am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 sufoc sub propria-mi greutate, strivit\u0103 de ni\u0219te p\u0103r\u021bi ale mele pe care nici nu le \u00een\u021belegeam \u0219i nici nu le puteam controla;<\/strong> pe unele le uram, cum ar fi faptul c\u0103 vorbesc mult \u0219i simt c\u0103 \u00eei plictisesc\/obosesc pe ceilal\u021bi, iar de altele sunt m\u00e2ndr\u0103, c\u0103ci rar mi-a fost dat s\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnesc un alt om at\u00e2t de empatic \u0219i prietenos ca mine. Sunt un om vesel, fericit cu pu\u021bin, sunt dependent\u0103 de iubirea celor semnificativi \u00een via\u021ba mea, sunt curajoas\u0103 \u0219i altruist\u0103. \u021ai-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 cuno\u0219ti. Dar pot fi trist\u0103 \u00eentr-o secund\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 niciun motiv, m\u0103 izolez \u0219i fug de cei dragi ca s\u0103 \u00eemi ling r\u0103ni despre care habar nu am cum sau de ce \u00eemi s\u00e2ngereaz\u0103. M\u0103 pot isteriza \u00eentr-o clip\u0103, dar cel mai probabil nu voi r\u0103bufni de team\u0103 c\u0103 voi deranja pe altcineva, le voi str\u00e2nge pe toate \u0219i le voi at\u00e2rna pe spate, a\u0219a cum o fac de 32 de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fac eforturi uria\u0219e s\u0103 \u00eemi \u021bin casa ordonat\u0103, a\u0219a cum am f\u0103cut eforturi colosale s\u0103 lucrez \u00een medii tehnice \u0219i sterile, al\u0103turi de oameni care mi-au repro\u0219at constant c\u0103 efervescen\u021ba mea este indezirabil\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A\u0219a sunt eu, ner\u0103bd\u0103toare \u0219i agitat\u0103, m\u0103 entuziasmez u\u0219or, vorbesc repede, sunt ner\u0103bd\u0103toare s\u0103 testez noi \u0219i noi limite, iar c\u00e2teodat\u0103 \u00een goana dup\u0103 zmeie invizibile m-am lovit r\u0103u de tot cu capul de asfalt.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n Uneori am luat decizii nebune\u0219ti \u0219i impulsive, iar alteori mi-am am\u00e2nat planuri importante, am l\u0103sat pe m\u00e2ine aproape tot ce puteam face ast\u0103zi, uneori de lene, dar de cele mai multe ori din convingerea c\u0103 nu sunt suficient de bun\u0103, suficient de preg\u0103tit\u0103. Cu o stim\u0103 de sine sc\u0103zut\u0103 \u0219i un mega sindrom al impostorului era c\u00e2t pe ce s\u0103 \u00eemi ratez visul de a deveni scriitor; noroc c\u0103 m-a luat pe sus, s\u0103 fie sigur c\u0103 ajung la el. C\u0103ci da, \u00eent\u00e2rzii. Oriunde, \u00een orice loc, oric\u00e2t de mare ar fi marja de timp pe care mi-o iau, inevitabil ajung g\u00e2f\u00e2ind transpirat\u0103 \u0219i nervoas\u0103 pe tot ce mi\u0219c\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar vede\u021bi voi, eu am vrut. Eu chiar am t\u00e2njit s\u0103 fiu un om normal<\/em>,<\/strong> a\u0219a cum societatea \u0219i mediile \u00een care am tr\u0103it toat\u0103 via\u021ba \u00eemi cereau s\u0103 fiu. \u0218i am f\u0103cut eforturi s\u0103 \u00eemi \u00eenfr\u00e2nez pornirile de a povesti cu lux de am\u0103nunte \u0219i mii de detalii, s\u0103 \u00eemi a\u0219tept r\u00e2ndul, s\u0103 predau la timpul stabilit pentru o anumit\u0103 sarcin\u0103, s\u0103 m\u0103 concentrez la discu\u021bia purtat\u0103 cu persoana din fa\u021ba mea \u00een timp ce un c\u0103\u021bel latr\u0103 \u00een curtea vecin\u0103 \u0219i pe geam tocmai ce a intrat o albin\u0103, iar apa picur\u0103 necontenit la robinet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eu obi\u0219nuiam s\u0103 lupt cu mine, cu tot ceea ce reprezint, pentru c\u0103 mi se p\u0103rea c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 anihilez acele p\u0103r\u021bi din mine care lupt\u0103 contra mea. \u0218i a venit aceast\u0103 zi c\u00e2nd am \u00een\u021beles \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it c\u0103 toate p\u0103r\u021bile acelea sunt piesele mele de puzzle, unele mai pl\u0103cute, altele mai pu\u021bin, dar sunt ale mele \u0219i NU LUPT\u0102 \u00eempotriva mea<\/strong>, ci mai degrab\u0103 au o tendin\u021b\u0103 de a fi n\u0103r\u0103va\u0219e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ziua c\u00e2nd m-am reintegrat eu pe mine a fost de fapt ziua c\u00e2nd am primit diagnosticul ADHD.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n A fost ziua c\u00e2nd am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 iubesc \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 accept pentru TOT ce sunt \u0219i culmea, zgomotul din capul meu s-a lini\u0219tit; am f\u0103cut leg\u0103turi \u00eentre starile \u0219i evenimentele tr\u0103ite \u00eenc\u0103 din copil\u0103rie \u0219i am primit claritate asupra viitorului M-am privit cu bl\u00e2nde\u021be \u0219i le-am cerut \u0219i celor din jur s\u0103 fie mai bl\u00e2nzi \u0219i r\u0103bdatori cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n ADHD este diagnosticul care mi-a schimbat via\u021ba.<\/strong> Iar. Tocmai de aia ies \u00een fa\u021b\u0103 ast\u0103zi s\u0103 \u00eemi spun povestea pentru c\u0103 simt c\u0103 e nevoie de mai mult\u0103 \u00een\u021belegere at\u00e2t din partea celor care, la fel ca \u0219i mine, se simt extratere\u0219tri printre ceilal\u021bi oameni datorit\u0103 semnelor tipice ADHD, dar mai ales s\u0103 militez pentru a c\u0103p\u0103ta \u00een\u021belegerea celor din jurul acelora care au nevoie de bl\u00e2nde\u021be, r\u0103bdare, sprijin \u0219i validare.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Exist\u0103 dou\u0103 momente \u00een via\u021ba mea care mi-au schimbat via\u021ba \u00een mod fundamental. Na\u0219terea primului meu copil, Anastasia, \u0219i diagnosticarea cu ADHD. 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